I get up from time to time to sketch dance steps on the music of different tones that sound to break our eardrums. Simon comes to stand behind me and rubs his cock against my buttocks. I feel his hand slip under my mini-skirt and move towards my privacy. The lights are dim, so there's no way we can be seen and then we don't care. We're not the only ones who flirt. When Simon's fingers find themselves inside me, I push him away. I felt weird. I don't want anyone other than Ryan to touch me. I only want to make love with him. I apologize to Simon, take my wallet and leave. Along the way I try to convince myself that I shouldn't get into a relationship with Ryan. Above all, I must not give in.
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*** Cynthia GUEU ***

I haven't heard from Ryan for two weeks. I haven't seen him once and I haven't even heard his voice. I dare not ask Maya after him. Truth be told, I refuse to admit that I miss him. I miss everything about him. His voice, his caresses, his lips, his kisses and his little him. I can't stand this distance between us anymore and I can't stand not seeing him anymore. How many times have I refrained from calling him, from going to see him at work, pretending to have gone to see Maya. How many times have I held back from going to his house to tell him that I need his warmth. I think I'm falling in love with him. But this fear of further disappointment paralyzes me. I want to try again but at the same time I fear the worst. I walk into Maya's bedroom and pretend to ask her something, hoping she gives me a commission from Ryan that she certainly forgot. She's getting ready for work.

Me: Maya haven't you seen my eyeliner?

Maya: No I have mine.

Me: Ok. Say will you have a break today so we can have lunch together?

Maya (smiling): Why don't you go see him at his desk instead of using me as a pretext.

Me: I don't know what you're talking about.

Maya: Yes it is. Come sit here.

We both sit on his bed for a better chat.

Maya: What's the problem?

Me: I miss him.

Maya: And?

Me: I still don't know if it's a good idea to give us a chance.

Maya: You see all life is a risk. We can do one thing today that will fail and do it again tomorrow to have a better result this time and vice versa. Just because you failed yesterday doesn't mean you shouldn't try again. You love him and he loves him too, so give it a try to see and if it doesn't work at least you will have tried.

Me: Do you think he loves me from the bottom of his heart?

Maya: Ask him the question but knowing him I can tell he still feels a little something for you.

Me: Ok, I'll think about it, but I'll still come and pick you up at noon to eat.

Maya: Understood honey. Okay, I'm off. Do you want something special for dinner tonight?

Me: No not really.

Maya (getting up): Ok I'm the one on the program and I don't really know what to cook. But hey, I'll find it. See you more my beautiful.

She gives me a kiss and leaves. I will also prepare to go to the club.

I go straight to Maya's office, who I'm sure is still deep in her files. This girl always forgets the break time so passionate about her work. It’s me every time to pull her from her desk. On my way to his office I meet Ryan walking towards his. He pretends he hasn't seen me and when I say hello he barely answers me. I feel a pang in my heart but I say nothing. When I get to Maya's office I turn around to go to Ryan's. I knock once and go home after he lets me. He looks up and when he sees me he starts writing again. This guy is affecting me too much and I won't be able to take it any longer.

Me: Hello Ryan.

Ryan: I thought we said hello before?

Me: What you did is not called salute. You completely ignored me Ryan. Is that it now?

Ryan: What can I do for you? Maya's office is on the other side. Go ahead.

Me: Ryan why are you doing this to me?

Ryan: What am I doing to you?

Me: Why are you ignoring me? Just because we don't sleep together doesn't mean we don't have to be friends anymore.

He gets up elegantly from his seat and comes to stand in front of me.

Ryan: One thing you need to know about men is that we don't accept being friends with the woman we love. Either we're dating or nothing but no friendship. We do not accept the friendzone. Excuse me, I have things to do.

He leaves, leaving me speechless. I hate that he ignores me like that. But at the same time hearing him tell me that he loves me makes me happy. It had been a long time since nobody told me, well sincerely. I'm going back to do what I came here for, which is to have lunch with Maya before I go to work at the club. The rest of my day at work I was in a daze. I can't stand his absence anymore, I'm in need of him, not in need of him sexually but in need of his person. Ok that's enough like that. I can't go one more day without him. I finish the last tidying up in the box, I change and I take the first taxi I see, direction Ryan's. During the trip I repeat in my head my speech to be sure that it will convince him. Maya is right I have to take risks in my life otherwise I will never do anything. My heart starts racing when I walk to her door. No sooner do I type than it opens. He didn't surprise him to see me. Either he knew I would come or he didn't care.