Me: Okay. Okay, get in well and be careful on the road.

Ryan: Got it, boss.

He comes closer to me forcing me to lean against the door and places one arm on one side of my head and the other hand strokes my cheek. Her face is so close to mine that I can feel her breath on my face.

Ryan: I loved our uptight moment.

Me me too.

He brings his lips together very slowly and without realizing it, I bite my lip while waiting for his to rest on them which is not long. The kiss is warm and tender. I love it in spite of myself. He frees my lips but still stays so close.

Ryan: Good night princess.

Me (looking at his lips): Good night Ryan.

He puts a last kiss on my lips and leaves. I also walk in after Ryan has disappeared from my sight. My head is full and my heart is troubled. I don't want to fall in love now. As soon as I walk in, I find Olivia and Maya sitting in the living room discussing a movie.

Me: Good evening.

Olivia: Do you know you have to make dinner or do I have to remind you?

Me: Sorry I didn't see the time passed.

I drop into the armchair with a lost expression.

Maya: What's going on? Why are you making that face ?

Me, I do not know. Today I read a message on Ryan's cell phone and was jealous.

Olivia: Ouch the real things are starting. You are in love ?

Me: Not really in love but I'm starting to feel things for him and I don't like it.

Maya: Why?

Me: Because I don't want a serious relationship right now. It’s not for me.

Maya: And what about her side?

Me: Precisely he suggested that we try. Like we're together.

Olivia: And what did you say?

Me: That it was not part of our agreement.

Silence sets in and the girls exchange a look.

Me: What should I do?

They look at each other again and Maya turns her head towards me.

Maya: If you feel anything for him, you have to give it a go. Maybe he's the one.

Me: I don't really know. I don't want to take another rake.

Maya: In that case, take your time to think better.

Olivia: Maya you should tell her ...

Maya: Olivia no.

Me: What's going on?

Olivia: I happen to be hungry so you should go to the kitchen and do something quick.

Me: You are a woman and you eat like a man. Think about deworming yourself.

Olivia (getting up): You tell me again and I'll beat you up.

I get up from the armchair, laughing and go to the kitchen. I love to provoke this girl and even though we do have a few arguments sometimes, we love each other very much. I put myself in the kitchen when I receive a message from Ryan.

Ryan: I made it home. I feel your absence in this house. I miss you.

Me: You too.

Ryan: Cynthia!

I do ?

Ryan: I think I'm falling for you.

I put down my cell phone, taking a deep breath. I'm lost. I get another message.

Ryan: I'm sorry to tell you like that but this is how I feel. I want us to try Cynthia. I don't want there to be just sex between us anymore.

Me: Me it suits me like that. I'll leave you, I'm busy in the kitchen. Have a good evening.

I put my cell phone in silence so as not to hear the ringtone when it answers. But after 10 minutes of cooking I come back to my cell phone if it answered but no. No answer. I sigh and finish my cooking. I'm afraid to trust a man again. I don't want to be disappointed anymore. I don't believe my heart will hold.

** Ryan **

I haven't been very comfortable since I started to feel how I feel for Cynthia and I'm even less so than I told her. I hadn't planned on falling in love or even having any feelings for a girl but it just happened to me like that and now I don't know what to do.
Should I get into a relationship with her or just leave it as it is and hope the feelings pass?
Since this morning as I sat in my office in front of this sketch that I have just started, I have only thought about it. I think I should make those feelings go away because apparently she doesn't feel the same way. My cell phone alarm reminds me of my meeting with my boss and a man who wants our services to build his hotel. He asked for a sketch and together we will make any changes if there are any. Luckily I finished it before the dilemma arose. I knock and go into the office of Mr. Terry YOUL after his deep and intimidating voice gives me permission, he wore his sunglasses being in his office which means he is not really d 'mood. Yes I got to know him, my boss is the type ... not the type, he is very intimidating. He hardly ever speaks, never smiles, he wears his sunglasses usually when he's not in the mood but also when it's sunny so when you see him with his sunglasses on, you don't know exactly if he wore them because of the sun or because he is not in the mood or because of both.
With him we don't really know which foot to dance on, I greet him and he points to the seat in front of him to signal me to sit down. He takes his cell phone, which he begins to manipulate without paying me any more attention.I pretend to look at my sketch to see if everything is perfect. His secretary announces the arrival of our clients and lets him in.