It is very difficult to over the pain. No matter how hard I try to stay away, it comes closer. Pain, that with every drop of time I can feel it. How long will I suffer for this? Am I really suffering or am I just guilty?

I did everything I could, but deceived the world because the time will still come when you will
leave me.

You still leave me, why did you leave me. Why did you leave me doing nothing for you. How can I get it up again when you are no longer by my side?