HIM
By Kim B
Date: August 26, 2024
Ch. 14The Diary


Blessing couldn't get what happened that night in the club off his head. It was the first time he had ever experienced such a thing in his life and it was all thanks to Victoria who became a tutor that night and helped him have a great experience.

Blessing sat down in their room reminiscing on what happened that night, the way the unknown girl pressed her body on his body as they danced, and the way Victoria calmed him down not to be afraid but dance with the girl holding and touching the girl body like he owns her to see the girl enjoying it.

The feeling Blessing felt as he danced with the girl touching and holding her body and the girl pressing her body on his that night was a feeling he had never experienced which made him think he had been missing so much about life being a lonely person. Blessing couldn’t describe the feeling but he knew he was ready to have such fun again and feel that way again next time if he was permitted and Blessing thought to himself that if it hadn’t been for the incident then he wouldn’t have known such a feeling existed.

That feeling alone makes Blessing want to go out to have fun and meet people but he isn’t still courageous enough to go outside on his own to make friends thinking his mask would be against him so he has been asking Victoria when they will be going out again since she had become his courage and since after that night they haven’t went out and Victoria tells him to calm until she sort out school stuff.

Victoria had been wondering why Blessing kept telling her that they should go out again or better still they should go to the club they went to the last night even though she told him to let her finish with school stuff. Victoria noticed Blessing had been acting weird ever since that night at the club because he always spent most of his leisure time thinking and smiling. Victoria always wondered what was it that he always thought about that made him smile and sometimes distracted him in class. Victoria wanted to find out what was going on with Blessing so she asked him but he always said nothing was wrong with him.

One day, Victoria came back from class and entered their room not to see Blessing in the room and wondered why he left knowing he should be home but saw a book on his bed. Victoria moved closer to Blessing's bed and saw the book was a diary. Upon seeing the diary, Victoria wonders who owns the diary because she knows Blessing does not own one and has never seen him with one which makes her crave for what could be written inside the diary and who owns it.

Victoria took the diary and opened it to read the context of the diary and saw that the diary belonged to Blessing which surprised her at how Blessing could possess a diary and she didn't know about it. Victoria decided to first read the last things that were written inside the diary. Victoria was astounded by the things she read in the diary which was what Blessing wrote in the diary wondering if it was truly Blessing that wrote them and if that is how he feel and how emotional he is.

Victoria was lost inside Blessing's diary because she couldn’t believe what she saw inside the diary that she didn’t know when Blessing entered the room smiling and immediately Blessing saw her with his diary, he walked hurried to her to collect his diary from her. Victoria regained consciousness to reality when Blessing took his diary from her making her look at Blessing to see his facial expression looking like that of an angry person as Blessing closed his diary. Victoria wanted to talk to Blessing but before she could Blessing asked her “what are you doing?”.

“I..um…l….” Victoria stuttered without managing to compose a sentence.

“What were you doing with my diary?” Blessing asked Victoria.

“Nothing. I just saw it here. I didn’t even know it was yours” said Victoria.

“Even after reading it?” asked Blessing.

“I did not read……” said Victoria.

Victoria was cut short of words as Blessing cut in saying to her “don’t even try to lie. You did not even know when I walked in into the room. I saw you reading it. You are an educated person so you should know not to read someone else’s diary but still you did”.

“I am sorry. I didn’t mean to. I just…..” said Victoria.

Victoria couldn’t finish her words as Blessing cut in saying to her “you mind returning to your space”.

Victoria stood up and walked toward her bed while Blessing lay down on his bed with his diary looking at the ceiling. Getting to her bed, Victoria didn’t sit down but looked at Blessing instead as she thought about all that she read inside the diary. Victoria couldn’t get all that she read inside the diary off her head so she went to Blessing. Upon getting to Blessing, Victoria called Blessing's name and Blessing asked her what she wanted.

Victoria said to Blessing “if you don’t mind, can I ask you a question”.

“Yes, you can as long as it does not have anything to do with what is written inside my diary” said Blessing looking at her.

Victoria wondered how Blessing was able to know she was going to ask her questions concerning what she read in the diary so that made her not to ask him any questions again since he told her not to if it is concerning what she read inside the diary.

Since Victoria couldn’t ask Blessing any question she turned to return to her space but as she turned to leave, Blessing said to her “don’t ever try asking me any questions regarding all that you saw in the dairy because I would never answer you”.

Victoria stopped upon hearing Blessing say that to her and she said to Blessing “if I don’t get to ask you then I will make sure I find an answer to what I read in that diary in a physical way and from now on I will work on you with what I read in that diary”, without looking at him.

Hearing that, Blessing smiled while Victoria returned to her space. Victoria lay on her bed thinking about all that she read from the book while Blessing played music from his phone and closed his eyes as he listened and felt the beat and lyrics of the music.

After the diary incident, there was distance between Victoria and Blessing. They no longer talk to each other and always mind their business. Blessing sees that as a chance to always be with himself and enjoy his lonely lifestyle. Blessing returns his lifestyle to the lifestyle of being alone all the time, listening to music, thinking, and watching movies but he suddenly finds himself missing the fun.

Blessing wondered why he was not contented with him being alone which was what he ever needed once as long as he had music and movies. Blessing tried to get off the feeling of fun and the thought of fun off his head but he couldn’t no matter what he tried which made him realize he was in love with fun and has missed it a lot ever since he and Victoria stopped talking.

Blessing eventually felt the urge to have fun and he couldn’t go meet Victoria since he didn’t want to be the one to first give in even though he had no idea why she suddenly stopped talking to him. Blessing thought it couldn’t have been because of the diary incident that she had stopped talking to her because she said she would work on him using what she read in the diary.

Since Blessing couldn’t go meet Victoria, he decided to go out to have fun all alone. Blessing did have fun but it wasn’t that fun like having it with someone and that made him miss Victoria. Blessing wouldn’t have missed Victoria if he had been able to make friends whom he could have fun with but he doesn’t know how to communicate with people or dare to because of his mask.

Blessing even went to clubs to see if he could enjoy himself but he couldn’t since he wasn’t able to get close to people or have the courage to talk to them thinking no one would want to because of his mask.

Blessing eventually gives up on fun since there is no fun in the fun he is having, it looks boring with just him alone but then he gets a text from an unknown girl with her picture and location to meet her saying he wants to be friends with him which makes him shocked.



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