I exhaled in annoyance. "I never let my mom down. Precisely you, Mas," I spit looking at Mas Bara. "Come on, don't fight here, Bella," I paused when my mother had appeared with a tray containing two cups. My hand took one by one the small cup. I put it on the table. Right in front of Mas Bara and the other one in front of me. "Thank you, ma'am," I said smiling at her. Now mom is sitting in front of us both. Her face looks radiant. "Bara, definitely here to pick up Bella, right?" "Yes, ma'am. Because later mom will come home. So my mother must be looking for Bella," said Mas Bara, smiling politely. He smiled as if there was nothing wrong at all. "Oh, I see? Well, if that's the case, Bella just go home, okay? Mother is okay here, besides there is also Bi Sumi accompanying mother," said mother, looking at my face. He seemed to coax me with his eyes. I looked down annoyed. I want my emotions to be released. I don't want to go to that house. The thought of Mas Bara having an affair with Arum in my own room made me so upset. But I also can not bear with my mother-in-law. He will definitely look for me with worry.

Mas Bara held the back of my hand. Acting as if you want to melt the frozen atmosphere. "Bella, Mas Bara, I'm sorry, okay? Mas Bara knows this is all Mas Bara's fault. Sir, I'm really sorry. You're home, Bella. Come with Mas Bara in the car, okay?” Tch! Mas Bara's soft voice really wants to make me vomit. He's so smart at acting. "I don't know, sir. I'll think about it later. I want to be here first tonight," I said flatly. I let go of Mas Bara's hand. Mother looked at me with disappointment. "I'll take a break, Mr. I'm tired," I said quickly and went inside. Just let Mas Bara say anything to coax me home. Anyway, tonight I want to spend the night here with mom. I entered the room and sat still. My heart hurts a lot remembering the picture when Mas Bara was in bed with Arum. "I hate! I hate! I hate!" I screamed inside while shedding tears. *** "You're patient, Bara. Women are like that. If he's angry, he just wants to be alone. I hope we don't push Bella too hard. Bella will be home soon. I'm sure of that," said a mother named Sukma in a soft voice. Bara smiled slightly as he looked down and saw his mother-in-law. "Yes, ma'am. Just try not to force Bella. Yes, I hope Bella wants to come home soon. Because Bara doesn't like Mama. Mama will also be sad if Bella is not at home. You know right? If you really love Bella," "Yes, mother knows that. Later, mother will slowly persuade Bella so she wants to come home," said Sukma, a gentle woman. Just nodded in understanding. "Bella, I don't want to tell you what happened to you two. But I'm sure you two will be able to finish it yourself," explained Sukma, a kind mother-in-law. Bara was relieved that what Bella said was true. If Bella didn't tell her mother about her cheating on her. "That's fine, ma'am. Bara is also embarrassed when there are household problems like this. Actually, this is just a trivial matter, really, ma'am,” Bara easily said that sentence. “A trivial matter. That's a problem. I hope you two finish it quickly," said Sukma with a smile looking at Bara. "God willing, Mrs. If that's the case, just say goodbye to going home first, okay, Mom?"
Bara's car is now leaving the yard where there are small rice fields in front of it. That night Bara was very confused. What if Bella really didn't come home. Surely the mother will be sad and fall ill. Bara was also confused about what to say to his mother about Bella suddenly running away. In the middle of Bara's mind that was messed up. He turned the steering wheel towards a different road. He didn't go home. Arumsari is the goal tonight. Bara doesn't want to bother. He immediately rushed to the boarding house of the woman he was having an affair with. According to Bara Arum, she is a woman who can reconcile Bara's soul. Bara fell in love with the widow. Even though Arum is a widow, her charm is very attractive to you men who see her. That night Bara made love with Arum.

I can't sleep. My mind is very messed up. I keep thinking about why Mas Bara could cheat on me. I stood staring at the mirror. My hand touched my face hesitantly.
"Am I not beautiful anymore to Mas Bara?" I asked myself.
My eyes shed tears of sadness. Arum's face suddenly came to mind. Maybe Arum is prettier than me. Arum's face that looks mature. Perfect thick eyebrows and lips that captivate Adam. Yes she is beautiful. But why should I be the victim of an affair. Why God?
I've tried to be a woman Solehah. I wear the hijab because I want to be an obedient wife. I don't want to reveal my nakedness. Because later my husband will be asked later in the afterlife. O Allah, is my decision to wear the hijab wrong? Oh God, I admit that ever since I wore the Hijab, Mas Bara felt uncomfortable with me. He seemed to disapprove of me wearing the hijab. But is it wrong for me to try to be more obedient to you, O Allah?

I've tried to be a woman Solehah. I wear the hijab because I want to be an obedient wife. I don't want to reveal my nakedness. Because later my husband will be asked later in the afterlife. O Allah, is my decision to wear the hijab wrong? Oh God, I admit that ever since I wore the Hijab, Mas Bara felt uncomfortable with me. He seemed to disapprove of me wearing the hijab. But is it wrong for me to try to be more obedient to you, O Allah?
My reflection is clearly visible in the mirror. My eyes were bruised and red from so many tears. I feel like I want to scream. I wanted to go to a hill then I screamed loudly. Now I can only slumped in front of the dressing table.