My eyes narrowed as I looked at the phone screen. Incoming call from Siska. My sister-in-law, Siska.
"Hello, what's wrong, Sis?" I asked in surprise. Why did he call me.
"Tomorrow Siska wants to go to Jakarta, Ma'am," Siska answered briefly.
"Oh, you want to see mama?" I asked.
"Yes Miss. The problem is that this morning Mas Bara called and said that my mother was sick.
"Oh, yes mom also said that. Miss Bella was asked to contact you. Yes, maybe mom still misses you," I said, remembering what mom said this morning.
"Yes Miss. But Siska is confused about what to answer later. Siska will go to Jakarta later, just alone," said Siska in a low voice.
"Have you separated from Broto's house?" I asked seriously.
"Alright, miss. I was kicked out of the house. Yes, I also don't want to be with him anymore. Now I'm at Doni's apartment, Ma'am,” explained Siska, a beautiful girl who has one child.
“So Bagas and Broto? Then you are under the same roof Doni mean?” I asked angrily.
"Yes, Miss Bagas and Mas Broto. But later I will prepare a special lawyer so that Doni's custody can fall into my hands," said Siska confidently.
“Huh? I'm asking you. Are you under the same roof as Doni?” I asked annoyed.
"Yes Miss. Why the heck, we're also going to get married," Siska defended herself in a tone that was unpleasant to hear.
"Yeah, don't be like that, Siska. You and Doni are not muhrim. You two can't be in the same apartment. Oh, let alone sleeping together. You are not legally husband and wife," I said to my sister-in-law.
"Yes it is, Miss. It's difficult Ma'am, if Doni and I are separated. We do, already love each other. Besides, I'm not going to mess around either, sis," said Siska in an annoyed tone.
"It's not a matter of love or not love, Siska. The law of adultery is a grave sin. Unlawful, accursed to Allah. Even approaching adultery is prohibited. Moreover, you are still the status of someone's husband. You could be stoned, Siska,” I said firmly.
"Oops, okay. Miss Bella, don't talk to me. Don't talk about it, my husband. He's cheating right? I'm so sorry, Ma'am. Why do you have to stick with Mas Bara," Siska said, making me freeze. It turned out that he already knew that Mas Bara was cheating on me.
I just hung up my phone quickly. I'm lazy to talk about it. Besides, why did Siska criticize me? I said I'm sorry, I've just got to work.
***
Tonight mom is asleep. I already fed him. Mom also had time to change diapers and I helped mom change diapers. Mom still feels weak. Hopefully tomorrow mom can get well soon.
I watched tv while lying on the couch. Because Mas Bara is still in the room and he will definitely sleep in the room. I'm not comfortable sleeping with Mas Bara. He's cheating on me why should I sleep next to him.
"What are you watching, Bella?" asked Mas Bara casually. He bent down leaning on the sofa.
I looked at him angrily. I had to get out of my bed. I sat down annoyed.
"Yes, you see. What am I watching?" I said angrily.
"You want to be like this all the time, Bel?" asked Mas Bara by looking at me.
"Like this, what do you mean?" I asked in surprise.
"Yes, ignore me. You don't want to sleep in the room either. You always sleep on this couch," complained Mas Bara, looking at me.
"You started all of this, Mr. It's okay if I act like this. Sooner or later. I will also tell the truth about our household with mama, Mas," I explained clearly seeing Mas Bara's eyes.
Mas Bara looked down and took a deep breath and looked at me.
"Why is it? You don't accept fate. I mean, just live with all of this. Besides, I actually still love you, Bel, "said Mas Bara confidently.
"Accept fate?" I asked in surprise then looked the other way.
"I accept fate that you cheated on me, Mas. But I can't be with you either. I don't want to share love, Mas," I said firmly. There is a feeling that is heartbreaking and it really hurts.
"It's good Arum, you can be friends with Arum. We can do it together, Bell. I'm sure I can," said Mas Bara as if he didn't feel the slightest bit guilty.
I shifted my position to get closer to him. Right in front of his face I said.
"I don't want honey, Mas," I said and then looked down sadly.
"Why, Bell?"
"You still ask why? Astaghfirullah, Mas," I said weakly.
“Do you really want to live as a widow? It's hard, Bell. You can't. You will start again with another man. Isn't that tired for you? It's better to just stay with me forever," said Mas Bara, looking at me from the side.
I shook my head quickly as I said to him.
"Crazy, you mas!"
"I'm not crazy, Bella. I'm still sober. I just don't want to keep fighting. I want us all to be at peace. Bel," Mas Bara said, making me speechless.

"Love can't be controlled, Bella. I love you and also Siska. I can't leave any of you behind. I will try my best if I can make you and Siska happy,” explained Mas Bara trying to convince me.
"I don't know anymore, what are your thoughts," I said quickly and then left him in the living room.
My feet walk to the toilet. My hand closed the door tightly. I looked at my face in the mirror. Is it true that Mas Bara can live with two wives?
Sometimes I can survive and sometimes I can be fragile. If I'm fragile, I'm really fragile, I want to part with Mas Bara. But I also still have feelings for Mas Bara. Although there is also hatred. I don't know, I don't know what really happened to my heart.
I'm a spoiled woman. It seems I won't be able to live without a lover for a long time. I'm the type of person who has fallen in love once again. I am also loyal to my partner. What's more, Mas Bara is my older classmate whom I have always liked until finally he suddenly asked me to marry him. It was a miracle for my life. It felt unfair if I had to destroy my love story because of the actor named Arum. If I step back. That means I lost to the perpetrator. I do not want that to happen. But it's also difficult if you have to share your husband with Mas Bara.