Now we are all in the car. I was silent, did not speak at all with Mas Bara. I know for sure Mas Bara is very annoyed with me. Maybe Arum told Mas Bara that I accidentally bumped into him in the toilet. I feel very happy to see Mas Bara's face that is annoyed like this. Let it go, this is more painful than all my heartache when he cheated on me. The car drove on the turnpike back. It was getting dark and Mama and Mirna were already fast asleep. Mas Bara is still focused on driving. I look at it from the side. Her face is so sweet but unfortunately she has no heart. He cheated on me. Evil, very evil you Mas Bara. "If you're sleepy, just sleep," Mas Bara said, glancing at me. I don't know what kind of sentence it is. Is he pretending to be nice to me or is he feeling guilty? "If you're sleepy, let's just rest in the rest area if there's one," I said softly. I'm still thinking about Mas Bara's health. Of course I'm worried. Because there is no way there is no compassion for five years of living with him. "Yes, I'll just take a break at the rest area later. Maybe soon we will get there, "said Mas Bara flatly. Her face is still very cute when talking. But it's a pity that his heart may no longer have my name on it. Now the car is parked in the second rest area. Mama decided to sleep in a room that was rented out. Because mom really wants to sleep well. In the end we all also rented a room. Mas Bara and I are of course in the same room. I saw him who was putting his black bag on the floor and now he was calling someone. As usual, Mas Bara avoids me when he wants to make a call. I followed him from behind. "I'm at the rest area. I'm renting a room. Because mom asked. You're here, tell the driver. Okay?" said Mas Bara. Oh so Arum used a car with a driver called from Mas Bara. Mas Bara is very serious about making sure Arum goes to Padang safely. Now Mas Bara turned around and he looked at me awkwardly. His eyes see my face clearly. Maybe there was a hint of annoyance in her eyes. "It's okay, Mr. After all, I already know that you're cheating on me, right?” I said clearly in front of his face. I try to be as relaxed as possible. "Are you the one who accidentally bumped into Arum in the toilet?" asked Mas Bara firmly. "Why, sir? Don't like me acting like a witch in front of Arum? Are you defending Arum? Oh yes, I know she's Cinderella in your eyes. Is not it?" I exclaimed with a sweet smile. "He is indeed Cinderella in my eyes and of course I will protect Arum," said the man with the thin sideburns. He lifted his chin in front of my face. “Just try to protect Arum. I want to know how strong you are," I said with narrowed eyes. "If you mess with Arum again. You will know the consequences, said Mas Bara, pointing with his index finger right in front of my nose. Then he just walked away in front of me. I can only smile seeing his behavior. I knew he must be scared but he pretended to act brave towards me. If Mas Bara cheats on me, I'm sure Mama will believe me. Then Mama will definitely hate Mas Bara. I walked towards the room. My hand gripped the door knob. But after I moved it a few times it turned out that the door couldn't even be opened. Mas Bara on purpose huh? "Mas Bara! Open the door!” I shouted as I kicked the door hard. There was no Mas Bara's voice at all. I returned to break down the wooden door. I also called my husband's name many times. Damn, Mas Bara really did that to me. He really is so impudent.
He really is so impudent. I can't keep knocking on doors. Surely mama will hear and eventually wake up. It's also a pity if you have to wake up your sleeping mother. I can only turn my back to the door in resignation. The clock shows one o'clock. Is my mother sleeping at home yet? I'm just trying to call mom. I miss mom. "Hello, Mom?" I exclaimed happily. "You haven't slept yet?" my mother asked in a worried voice. "Not yet, ma'am. Can't sleep Mom," I lied. I don't want mom to have a lot of thoughts because of me. "Oh I see," said mother softly. "Mom, what were you doing? Are you sleeping, ma'am? No wonder it took so long to pick it up," I called out to my mother on the other end of the phone line. "Yes, mother finished praying at night. Keep on ringing mom's phone," said the mother and then yawned. "Okay, tomorrow Bella will call again, Mom. Mother, please rest, assalamualaikum Ma'am," I said then hung up the phone. God, I feel touched now. When mother said that she was praying at night. I'm reminded of myself. I haven't prayed at night in a long time. Worship whose prayers will surely be granted. Because that night the angels will come down and witness who is carrying out the night prayers. Maybe it's time for me to do that holy worship. My feet stepped towards the musolla which is not too big. I exhale and breathe fresh air again tonight. Even though there was a bit of cold air, it felt fresher than usual. Maybe because it wasn't too crowded because it was late at night. I made ablution even though it felt cold but I forced myself. After that I feel fresh again and I don't feel sleepy. Maybe it's time for me to perform the prayer service tonight regularly. Because I have a pretty complicated problem in my household. It is certain that the Creator knows what is best for me. Maybe I'll try to live up to this fate. Yes, I'm trying even though it feels difficult and sometimes the sincerity returns. But at least I'm trying to come back to be sincere. I pray the four cycles of prayer at night with a salutation after two cycles. After that I did the sunnah prayer witir one rakaat. Now I dhikr as much as I can and I also pray. I pray that Mas Bara can think clearly. I hope Mas Bara doesn't fall into things that make him sick himself in the end. If I hope Mas Bara loves me like before, maybe I have to seduce the owner of the heart. Allah is the only owner of Mas Bara's heart. Maybe I should just keep praying to the Creator. After I feel relieved. Because I have expressed my heart while praying. Now I was standing ready to leave the prayer room and my eyes caught Arum's figure walking alone out of the toilet. I just glanced at him then I walked away. Maybe Arum will also rent a room here. I was forced to rent another room. Because Mas Bara still closed the door to his room with a tight lock. Hm, I had to spend my money to rent a room because of Mas Bara who was angry.