"What! You must be joking!"Sarah was surprised to hear my story about the closing ceremony few days ago. "Are you serious, El? Are you sure it was really Mr. B who hired Sylvia?" with annoyed face
Sarah finally mentioned the name of Sylvia, someone she was trying to forget. "But, how did he react, El? Does he recognize you?"

"How can I lied to you, Sarah! Fortunately, he didn't recognize me. Maybe because the lighting at that time was less clear and the weather was raining heavily, or maybe he was not focused," I replied, taking the cookies from the jar on the table. Today, I came to Wonderland on purpose after Sarah called and asked me to stop by for a while.

"I'm pretty sure it was him! The young man who has that beautiful neck! The one wearing the T-shirt costs double digits! I know and 100% sure, from his voice and face, " I added confidently.

"What a strange coincidence!"Sarah laughed a little as she turned her work chair. "But you're happy, right, to have managed to find Mr. B's true identity?"

"Happy, very happy ... but now I'm not as excited as before."I kept taking Cookies and eating them. This cake is so good, it makes it hard for me to stop chewing. I didn't think much of the conversation about Sebastian.

"It worked? Why, El? Wasn't it yesterday that you were almost fanatical about the brand of clothes that Mr. B wore?"Sarah is such a tease. I rolled my eyes, feeling annoyed. "Never mind, stop it, don't start it."

"Seriously, El, why did you suddenly change your mind? "That's weird," Sarah wondered.

"Hmm, did you forget? Wasn't it you who told me not to focus too much on thinking about Mr. B? Are you getting old, and getting forgetful, huh?"

"It's good to be old! And for your information, I'm not that old, I'm just mature and more wise," Sarah Shook off her long hair in a flirtatious manner. I laughed at her behavior.

"Hey. Just give me Answer quickly, El. Don't make me more curious!"Sarah is pushing me.

"I think, it's looks like Sebastian ... He like Amelie."

Hearing my words, Sarah looked at me sympathetically. "Huh? Really, El? How do you know that?"

"During that night, ... He asked about Amelie with a face that full of joy."I answered with a deep sigh.

Seeing me taking a deep breath, Sarah tried to comfort, " then, his not your soul mate, El. Be patient, I hope you get someone that match you soon. Don't be so sad, El."

"My Dear... I took a breath not because of Sebastian, but because of the Cookies in this jar... it's already empty, " I said, lifting the empty jar from which only crumbs remained. Sarah immediately patted her forehead.

**

After my business with Sarah done, I drove without a clear destination. It was still late afternoon, and I was not in the mood to immediately go home to a quiet apartment. It is better to spend time in a crowded place, moreover, the weather today is quite sunny. It would be a pity if it was only spent lying in front of the television.

As I was driving, I thought back to my conversation with Sarah.

** FLASHBACK

"El, I want to ask you something. Please answer honestly, will you ..."Sarah asked with a worried face.

"What do you want to ask? If I could answer, I would answer honestly."

Sarah paused for a moment, hesitating to ask a question that clearly made her uneasy. I know that Sarah must be facing a problem that makes her confused to need advice from someone she trusts.

"El, do you think I should close Wonderland? Honestly, El, I'm so confused...."Sarah was very serious about her question.

"Why, suddenly? Why suddenly think like that?"I asked as I looked at Sarah who was slowly massaging the bridge of her nose. "What happened?"

"I Don't Know, El... lately, especially since Sylvia's escape, I haven't been calm. I always feel guilty, scared... I have mixed feelings. Plus, I have nightmares more and more..."

When I heard Sarah's question, I was confused.

To be honest, when Sarah asked me that, I couldn't give an answer. I felt uncomfortable telling the truth, worried if I answered incorrectly. Deep down in my heart, I also wanted to quit, as did Sarah want.

My mind suddenly turned to the sudden feeling of hunger. I just realized it's past lunchtime. I looked around the street, hoping to find a good restaurant.

Not long after, i saw a signboard of a family restaurant that is quite famous. I decided to turn around and stop by for lunch.

Luckily, as soon as I entered, I found a parking spot! I smiled as I parked the car. Having managed to park, I excitedly opened the car door and... at the same time, opposite where I parked the car, two people who looked familiar got out of their vehicles. Looks like they just finished parking too.

I immediately discouraged from going down, hurriedly closed the car door. From behind the wheel, I could see them clearly. They looked very harmonious, beautiful and handsome, with pure white skin and ideal body proportions. I took a deep breath while squeezing the steering wheel. I could see the beautiful girl's smile expanding perfectly. The girl is Amelie. And the man next to him, who laughed heartily while occasionally rubbing Amelie head , was none other than Sebastian.

Strange, very strange. Although Sebastian and I have nothing to do, but why is there a pain that seems to squeeze my chest? It felt so tight, like there was no oxygen. Is this what you call disappointment in love? Jesus, El... you're not even on the list of people he remembers! Why do i feel hurt and jealous? Just wake up Raveline! Sebastian is not the man you were meant to be, Raveline!

I put my head on the wheel. I think this is it , what it feels like to have a broken heart, even though you don't have any relationship with him.

***