While walking towards the administration, my mind could not be separated from the message from Mr. B. Although it was only a light conversation, a message from Mr. B early this morning managed to keep me thinking about it. Is this Called love? Is it possible that this is how people in love feel? Hmm. I don't think so, falling in love can't be that easy.
But, why did that short message bother me so much? Why does my heart feel different, as if I have become weak and having a heart attack?

Maybe it's because my life is full of bitterness and pain, that a little thing like a short message can make me flutter.

Raveline keeps trying to deny her feelings.

Have you ever felt it? Living in bitterness and falsehood for too long. I am sure, anyone will not be able to live my life scenario, because every human being has a different destiny and life path. I'm sure, even though I'm a sinner, there will be times when I can feel happiness. I just need to gather determination and strong intention. I hope one day I find someone who is supportive and encouraging.

"Hey, Rose! You want to take your annual leave, right?"the friendly greeting of one of the administrative staff brought me to my senses. "I've been waiting, this morning Madam has contacted me to help you, sist."

"Oh, you know," I replied, trying to remember the staff's name. I quick glanced at her name tag: Vivian. Even though I see her often, I do forget people's names.

"Hey, Rose, I just got a call from my boyfriend. You can sit there for a while."Vivian asked permission to receive phone calls from her lover.

"Oh, sure. "I'm not in a hurry either," I said. Vivian moved away, talking with a beaming face. Her smile is different when talking to a lover than when greeting me.

Moments later, Vivian returned. "Come On, Rose, come with me. I'll help you with your annual leave." She walked in front of me, looking more radiant than before.

"Oh, okay," I answered. "Ehm, Vivian ... Can i ask you for something?"

"Yes?" Vivian quick reply.

"You don't mind if I ask an important question, don't you?"

"About the holidays?"asked Vivian without looking at me.

"Um, not that ... It's about love feelings."

"Love feeling?"Vivian looked at me confused.

Even though I was embarrassed, I asked. "When I saw Ms. Vivian received the phone earlier, your face looked very happy. Your smile is different too."

"Oh, my dear. Is it true that I look like that?"Vivian laughed shyly.

"Seriously ... So, I'm curious. If i receive a message from someone and then smiles continue to remember the message contents, did I like the one who sent the message or did I just like the content of the message?"

Vivian looked at me in surprise. "Seriously, is that just a question?"

"Seriously. I was thinking about asking because I see Ms. Vivian seems to know better, because you already has a boyfriend."

"Does miss Rose have a boyfriend?"I shook my head.

"Hahaha! A girl as beautiful as miss Rose doesn't have a boyfriend yet? You must be joking." Vivian laughed.

I laughed too. "Maybe because I'm too focused on making money, so I don't think about having a boyfriend. After all, who wants a girl like me?"

Vivian smiled. "If Love is sincere, I don't think it will matter. Besides, I think you're the kind of girl who brings guys to their knees."

"But about the question, it depends on who sent the message," Vivian continued. "If the sender is not the one we expect, there will be no sense of excitement or pounding."

"So, right now, that means I can't be sure what I'm really feeling. Huh?"

"Yes, dear. It could be because you was too happy to receive a message from him," Vivian replied while entering the data. "Wait for the next message. If he really likes you, surely the content of the message also began to be different."

"Is that means I can't expect too much, huh?"I asked.

"It could be, Rose," replied Vivian, handing over her annual leave permit. "If he sends you another message, try to provoke him to ask about a girlfriend or something else that is not trivial."

"Vivian, can I ask you another favor. I want to ask you for advice ...." I smiled shyly. "Would you please give me suggestions for a conversation that is not boring ..."

"Oh, about that. Actually, the main key is to find a topic that is interesting for both parties. For example, you can start with a light but personal question, such as a hobby or favorite movie."

Vivian continued. " it's like, 'Do you like watching movies? What Genre do you like best? That way, you can find similarities or things that can be discussed further. Do not forget to listen well and show interest in the answer."

I smiled. " Okay, that makes sense. What if the answer is short or not too long?"

"Hmm, well, if that happens, you can try digging deeper with follow-up questions. For example, if he says he likes action movies, you can ask what action movie he last watched and what he liked about that movie."

" Oh, so keep expanding the topic of the answer, huh? Are there any other tricks?" I'm so excited.

"Well, there is, one more important thing: do not overexert yourself. If the conversation feels uncomfortable, maybe the topic is not right or the time is not right. Sometimes, changing the topic to something more general can help."

" like talking about the weather or the latest news?"

"Yes, even a little tacky, it's very possible. The point is, keep the conversation light and relaxed. If you are more familiar, you can talk about more personal things."

"Thank you so much, Vivian! Your suggestions are very helpful. Can't wait to try it."

"You're welcome, dear. Good luck and don't forget to enjoy the process. If you wants to talk to me again, just give me a call!"

I smiled at her suggestion. "Thank you very much, Ms. Vivian, for your help and advice."

After saying goodbye, I went to Sarah's House with a satisfied smile and a leave permit in hand. Finally, i official Leave!

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