Chapter 6
"You just need to open your eyes and listen to your heartbeat..."
You just need to open your eyes and listen to your heartbeat...
Is that so? I just have to close my eyes and listen to my heartbeat to see and find the man who is meant for me? That's just for me? Is it possible?
Silence reigned between the two of us for a few minutes. And there I was, lost in deep thought.
What I said and what he said were right. Love is not just a feeling. It's like a kiss from the wind, but you really have to close your eyes and listen to what your heart is thinking.
But why was it when I did that that his handsome face first appeared to me? When I opened my eyes, his smiling face was the first thing I saw and my heart raced. It's just weird. I think it's even worse with the man I'm with at the moment. Because Jade is not like this.
I'm not this anxious...
"Did you find it, Nica?" he asked me amused. I just facepalmed. What did he think? Easy to find? Is it easy to teach what our heart beats? Eh, I'm really still with Jade, eh.
"Damn it! I still love Jade!" I said and he quickly looked away from me. I even saw the tension in his jaw and the tightening of his grip on the steering wheel of his car. Does he seem angry? But what is the reason? I just told him the truth, duh.
Jade is still really... She's teasing me, eh. As if...I really don't know!
If I didn't come up with a way to talk to him, he really wouldn't pay attention to me anymore. I don't know why he looks angry. Is he mad at me? Did he get angry with my answer?
"Can't I disturb your work when we arrive in the province?" I asked and my nose twitched when I saw the shocked glance he gave me.
"It's fine..." he said. I thought he wouldn't answer anymore. He also seems to be a quiet person. If you don't talk to him, he won't talk and worst, he won't pay attention to you.
The silence between us was still deafening. Shoot...
"How many days will we stay there?" I asked again.
"Long..."
"Huh?" I asked in shock. how long? Will we be there long? Well, why? Doesn't he have a job here in Manila? I bet he's a busy man, isn't he?
"We're going to take a long time if you don't forget your ex right away," he said making my lips part.
Is that possible? Then... it will take me a long time to forget Jade. What is he saying? As long as I haven't forgotten the man I love, will we stay there for a long time?
Well what else are we going to do there? "Well, that took a long time, no. I know you still have work to do..." I said and the corner of his lips just rose.
"Then, start to forget your ex so that when we arrive in the province, you won't remember him immediately..."
"Huh? H-How do I do that?" I asked dumbfounded.
"Do you want to move on, Nica? Do you want to forget him?" He has a lot of questions. Of course I want to not get hurt anymore. I really want to forget everything that Jade and I had. For my life to move forward.
It's not always Jade that I'm worried about. I also need to put myself first and to be happy... And also get used to not having his presence.
"I want..." I answered and sighed. I looked at the food he bought. I scooped out its contents and took a bite of fries. "But how? How can I do that? Because I'm not like you...that it's easy for me to do that.For me to forget him right away. It's very difficult, eh," I said and directly I looked at his eyes. They are talking.
And even though he was careful while driving, he still kept glancing at me just to see my reaction.
"To move on. It doesn't mean to forget that you once loved him, Nica. There's nothing wrong with loving someone who isn't meant for you. It's always hard to forget that person, especially when they engraved a big part of it's in your heart. You should only forget what you feel. Not that person or your memory... It's only the love that only you can feel..." he promised long.
I understand that. Not all moving on means forgetting the person you loved and those memories. You just feel it. That's all I'll ever forget.
I also smiled at the end and it didn't escape his eyes so he also had a ghostly smile on his lips. I took one of the fries and brought it to my mouth. Yes, I literally test him.
"Just thank you, let's go," I said when he looked at my hand holding fries in confusion. He even turned to me before he opened his mouth and took one bite of the fries.
I took another bite for myself and after a while he spoke again.
"And so you can quickly forget your feelings for him... Start not thinking about him... Try not to say his name, Nica," he promised seriously.
"I guess that's hard... Because you're used to it... You're used to always remembering him and always looking for him." I said.
"I know. But I did it," he said.
"I'm different, you're different. You're a man and you guys are brave when it comes to that. You're strong, eh," I reasoned out.
"Try to think about something else... That doesn't include your ex. Try to shift your attention..."
"How about that? How do you do that?" He knows so much, eh. He's really amazing, isn't he?
"Think about me. Try to give me your full attention... Nica... I'm fine with being your hole cover," he said and I accidentally swallowed all the fries in my hand. The reason it got stuck in his throat.
My eyes are wet and I can't breathe. I was shocked by what he said. When he noticed what was happening to me, he was furious.
He stopped the car and quickly removed the seatbelt from his body. He leaned towards me and took a bottled water that was already full. He opened it and brought it to my mouth. He even allowed me to drink.
He gently patted my back and gently caressed it.
"Just take it easy," he told me. Why did he say that? Well, I was surprised! I never thought to look for a hole cover and I would see it in someone like him.
I'm afraid, no! I might hurt him. Where did he get that idea? Why does he seem to be fine with me treating him that way? That's just a cover hole?
When I was caressed, I gently patted his hand. He didn't say a word and kept looking at me.
"Why did you tell me that?" I asked with raised eyebrows. He reached my face and wiped something on the side of my lips "What?" he asked confused. As is he doesn't get what I mean!
"Your hole cover!" I exclaimed.
"I don't mind though," he said absentmindedly. It doesn't seem like a big deal to him.
He's handsome just so I can use him, no! "But I don't want to hurt other people, King," I said shaking my head.
"You can't hurt me, Nica... I just don't have it. All I want is to help you forget your love for the person... you don't... you have to worry because he belongs to someone else human and your brother..." Ouch, ah. He's really making me look like that?
It still hurts "Why? Why are you doing this, King?" I asked him seriously.
I stared into his heavy gaze and he did the same.
"Because you don't know, Nica..."
"Huh?" I was hung up on what he said. There is a sequel to that, eh.
"You don't know that you are able to get my attention too. Little by little I am also forgetting the pain I feel at this time. Just seeing you, Nica... Just seeing your gentle face.. I can feel your light presence. I can also see the smile on your lips... I can see your eyes shining... When will... When will I feel you kiss someone like that me, Nica?"
"When will I feel you kiss someone like me, Nica?"
"When will I be able to feel you kiss someone like me, Nica?"
"When will I be able to feel you kiss someone like me, Nica?"
His voice echoed again and again and words I heard from his lips. I can't seem to get it out of my head and I think it's stuck so that's all I can hear. I'm crazy...
"K-Kiss?" I said in surprise. Why kiss?
"I'm just kidding, Nica," he said and laughed as he continued driving.
Because I was so annoyed with him, I reached for his hair. Even though it was short I was able to pull him down making him moan. He thought, ha! I will not do this to him!
"Ouch, Nica!" he shouted and with one of his hands he grabbed my arm but because he was driving he couldn't remove my grip on him. He is also afraid that both of us will have an accident.
"Pervert! You tell me you don't plan to do anything to me but it looks like you're still asking to kiss me, huh!" I love him and I hold his hair tighter.
"Your hand, Nica. That's enough!" he shouted at me. "I'm really just kidding. It's good to tease you, eh!" he reasoned out I grinned when I saw the redness of his nape and neck. I just let him go and straightened up, then I went back to eating my fries. He stroked his damaged hair and just looked straight ahead with a poker face. I took a piece of fries and brought it to his mouth.
His jaw tightened when he saw that and looked at me but in the end he still tortured me.
"That hurts, Nica," he promised like a child and he also seemed to be looking for an ally. Oh, poor King. He has no allies "I know. That's why it's a peace offering," I said and took a bite of the fries. Even though he looked irritated, he still accepted what I offered him.
"Don't say that again in front of my face, King. I'm weird when I'm annoyed, especially if it's not a good joke, ah," I reminded him.
I was shocked by what he said. Why does he want to kiss me? And is he serious about what he said to cover holes? I won't do that. I wouldn't do that to him. He doesn't deserve it.
I will move on, which I will do on my own. That I will teach myself to forget my feelings for Jade. I don't want to use others just for my sake.
During the trip I fell asleep. Is it far from the province we are going to and it is tiring "Welcome to Villa Ciesta, Nica," said King when his car stopped at a huge gate and also saw the big mansion or villa... There was also a big placard attached to the gate saying Villa Ciesta "Wow..." I just said out of amazement.
This place is in Sta Rosa Province and I have only seen such a beautiful and big villa in my entire life.
The black gate opened and King started his car again. He came down first and because of my amazement I immediately got out. I looked around the whole place.
"It's beautiful..." I said in amazement.
"Mr. Dwight! Welcome to my Villa Ciesta!" a lady shouted energetically and she immediately greeted King with a tight hug. They already know each other "Mrs. Ciesta, good afternoon," King politely greeted the woman. If I'm not mistaken, my Mommy is just as old as him. Oh, I suddenly missed Mom.
She is beautiful, mestiza complexion. That's why his whiteness is more refined in his blue vestida which is not old fashion. It is well designed.
Her black hair was tied up. He has beautiful eyes, a sharp nose.
"Good afternoon to you too, Mr. Dwight," he said.
My eyebrows form into lines. Did she call King, Mr. Dwight? Could that be King's family name? Because he didn't say anything about their surname. So maybe that's King Dwight? His full name is beautiful, ah.
King Dwight...
Gennica Dennise Dwight...
Shet... It doesn't suit my name!
I was stunned when I realized what I thought was stupid. Did I add my name to King's surname but it's not appropriate. Thank you
Or maybe she could be Gennica Dennise del Acosta-Dwight...
I smirked when I was satisfied with my joining of our names. Hey...
The hair on my body rose again when King grabbed my back and pulled me.
"I have companion, Mrs. Ciesta. Just call her Nica," she introduced me.
His smile was wide when he saw me. For a while, he looked at me from head to toe. In a way that doesn't insult me. Because the lady seems nice. Just based on his light and light aura.
"Welcome to our Villa Ciesta, too Ms. Nica. You know what... I have a daughter... Come..." It pulled us both inside their villa and I can't say anything else but, it's really beautiful of Villa Ciesta and it seems like everything you want to do or need is all here.
I bet the ambiance inside. The kind of place where you never get bored and it's exciting to explore here if you're just given permission to wander around their villa.
We went to their receiving room and there was a big TV set there. It's like I'm in a hotel. The feelings are really like this.
To Be Continued...