A Heart's Desire
By Tani Writes
Date: May 2, 2024
Ch. 4Expression of Desire


Tara tried unsuccessfully to escape from Danesh many times and each time she fell on her knees before the love of this sincere man.
Their love for each other was growing very fast.
Tara said, till now she had been sharing her parent's love but she couldn’t share Danesh’s love with anyone.
Danesh had surrendered himself to Tara. He considered himself Tara’s property. Both felt each other around them many times in the fantasy world.
He always said, "I wanted Tara’s happiness".
He always used to say "My love is not selfish which imprisons you but you are the queen of my heart and soul, Rule me whenever you want".

Tara was unable to decide whether to free herself forever by attaining Danesh or to torment herself for the rest of her life by abandoning Danesh. She wondered what had happened to her. "It is said, a woman never falls in love, always looking for the best".
If that was the case, Danesh was the best person and Tara was sensible. Then why did she make such a decision that changed the lives of Tara and Danesh?
Danesh often said, "Tara doesn’t tell, but he had entered her soul", to which Tara replied that "she doesn’t like to talk big like philosophers, but she knows about her future which was imagined with Danesh".
Yes, if she does not get Danesh, then love and desire will not give her confidence.
On the other hand, he was adamant that if Tara would go with me with full confidence, we would meet, but Tara mentioned Danesh in her house many times and did not get any adequate response from her family.
She knew that their life together was only their heart’s desire and nothing else.
When Danesh was sure that Tara wanted to be with me but she wasn’t sure that we would meet, he thought that it was okay now that he wouldn’t force Tara anymore.
He was the son of a self-confident and courageous mother. He never wanted to force her.
There is no doubt that Tara was a cowardly girl. She was afraid of her father’s honor and people’s words.
As she did not deserve the immense love of a true and noble man, she always treated herself unfairly and compromised, but as usual, she did the same.

For the first time in her life, she had seen the anger of Danesh. Danesh used to get angry because the stone would melt if given so much love, but that cowardly girl was used to being cruel to herself.

Danesh, this time was saying many things in anger which was tearing Tara’s heart but she was shedding tears from her silent eyes. Tara had forced him to do all this. Danesh had cried several times because of Tara’s anger, but Tara was silent, she was breaking the heart of this innocent person along with herself.
Like a tyrannical king, she was mercilessly pulling the human into her soul but they were drifting apart.
Danesh was embedding himself further into Tara’s body.

Danesh realized for the first time that he had killed his feelings and words, he had wasted his love on Tara.
Tara was not the diamond that Danesh had been searching for for the past 25 years.
She was a glass doll that broke due to fear of injury. It seemed to Danesh that he was obstructing Tara’s flight, but Tara was losing a sincere person like Danesh due to fear.
He thought that if Tara was happy to be away from him, then it was fine "Go away! but be happy".
She was feeling Danesh’s words and emotions, she was seeing how much Danesh was in agony, but she knew that Danesh was doing all this for her.
While giving support, neither Tara could stop nor courage to go along with Danesh, very helpless this girl, was pushing herself from the beautiful place of love to the desert of separation.

In the end, the last words of Danesh came out like this! "My love is not so selfish as to think only of myself. I will be very happy when you forget everything and succeed yourself. It is your pleasure that you must go. I won’t even make a sound Tara!
Stay safe Baba’s Oasis princess, and keep smiling always!
May God! Grant you my joys and your sorrows to me".

Hearing all this, Tara was feeling as if someone was taking away her world, she wanted to cry so much that the whole world would see how much it hurts when lovers are separated.
She wanted to run away crying and hug Danesh and cry a lot. She wanted to tell him "Danesh! Without you, my happiness, my peace, and my life are all incomplete".
But that was all she could say,

"It hurts you to miss me.
I am an old story, forget me!

Drowning voice, let me hear.
For the last time, from the shore, call me!

People say that this love swallows.
I have also come in this love, pray for me!

I deserve it.
I am a weak moment, forget me!"

Danesh was silent for the first time today, maybe he had run out of words or he didn’t dare to speak, just wet eyelids and heart’s desire in their heart, two people were parting.
As if everything in the world was crying from this shock.

Danesh always used to say, "Tara! Stay with me or not but you will always be the only love in my heart", Tara would be silent on these words.

All social media activities of Danesh had ended.
Tara was completely silent. They could not see the colors of the world. She did not even think that she would be separated from herself by being separated from Danesh.
Sometimes crying with her head in her mother’s lap, feeling sad at the setting sun, and sometimes sighed after smelling the fragrance of Danesh in the cold winter air, all this was happening to her.
For the first time in her life, she realized that it doesn’t matter if a person is there or not, but love always remains in the heart.
It wasn’t that Tara wasn’t loyal or helpful, but she denied Danesh’s immense love just for the sake of her father’s honor. Who says love grows by being together or needs to meet? "People are remembered for their sweet tones, not for their long friendships".
In no time, Danesh had become so close to Tara that every night she would think of Danesh before going to bed and every morning she would start with thoughts of Danesh. She was not calm, but she had learned a great lesson.
"Some people are met by luck, not by price".



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