I try my last thread doing my very best in holding her back.
She looks at me unaffected like a brave warrior in a battle field who is prepared for the terminal state. "I was a womanizer before I met you." I breathed out breaking my ultimate truth in front of her. "I lost the count of many women I slept with. Women were only an item or another form of pleasure for me before I met you." Exposing myself to all the chances of endangerment I look down fearing her abhorrence. "I was a crazy, sick, philanderer at your age. I used to get drunk, party and sleep around doing meaningless sex. Now tell me little girl do you still love me?" I ask her with tenderness guiding a finger under her chin to look at me. She looks at me with a completely blank expression and my heart skips a beat fearing her repugnance yet it was most justified thought for the moment.

After a few minutes of staring at me in utter silence and making my heart hammer to suffering, she broke the mute holding up an equal challenge. "There is nothing in this world that can create aversion in me for you." She kisses my cheeks holding me by surprise and continues. "You wanted to bring me up in a solemn way. You underwent a penance and stayed celibate. What more should I expect from a man who sacrifices his complete youth every bit of his happiness for bringing me up unsullied and pristine." Holding her arms around me she places her head on my chest. "Your past is immaterial to me. I only bank on the present." She holds up the firmness and determination in her voice.  I look down at her and nibble her cheeks in affection and tell her. "You still have a chance little girl to hold on and go back to your previous life. I will marry you off to a person with a much better personality and you can stay happy all your life." She shook her head in stillness striking off all my conclusions. "You are the only man I love. You may not be perfect but are always the best person who will love me more than anyone in this world. I am not going to turn back in my decision. I will stay unmarried if that is the only way to stay with you."

Encapsulating her face in my big warm hands, I look at her in the eye and tell my final words to her. "Little girl, I held back myself all these years in bringing you up. Remember there is no looking back once you commit yourself in this relationship. I don't believe in boyfriend and girlfriend stuff. For me the ultimate and the only relationship I want to have with you is marriage. This is your last chance to back off. I am still waiting here and giving you a chance. Think and answer me taking your time.

She stops me to speak any further and slowly puts her hand at the back of my neck bending my head down. Her lips reach mine and pull into an ebullient kiss. There was a felling of need and fire in it and I kissed her back with equal necessity.

I am a hungry beast when it comes to sex. It is an emotion which I kept locked away in the Alladin's lamp for all these years. Will she be able to accept me for what I am?

Chapter 20

Adaah

With the passing days my intimacy with Ajit went to the next level. My emotions are always on fire whenever he is near me. Our holidays are just around the corner. After a lot of bargaining and arguments for hours together I finally could have Ajit's consent for my vacation at Rhea's house or in other words his parent's house. Rhea had constantly been calling me about the vacation plans and our possible little adventures. One of them is rock at the bar and go on a booze. I think she doesn't have a complete idea about her authoritarian brother. If I tell Ajit about our little mischievous plan he would flip. Leave about sending me on a vacation, he wouldn't allow me to step out of the house. I smile thinking of his expression once I tell him what I am going to do after reaching Mumbai.Packing all my stuff for a month long vacation I was over enthusiastic except for the part of missing my 'sweetheart'. Ajit helped me in the packing and kept me instructing about the do's and don'ts while staying outdoors. The next morning I reached Mumbai by one of Ajit's private planes. All along the journey he was bothered about my security. I wonder if he did not have the share holders meeting he would have been with me in the flight.
Ajit
Spending a month without Adaah was the biggest examination I had to undergo in my life. I tried all my means to stop her from going on a vacation. I even lured her to take her to a Disney land. She looked at me like I had grown two heads. "I am grown up girl now." She tells me in a stern voice pointing a finger to herself. I raise a brow looking at her amused and decided to play a bit with her. "Is it so? Then what are all those teddy bears and Barbie dolls doing in your bedroom?" Her face was worth watching at the moment. My face immediately pulls to a guffaw at the jubilant thought. With eyebrows knitted and her face scrunched she looked at me as though I have spoken something sinful. After a moment of thought process she answers me in her silvery voice "I just kept them to donate to an orphanage." I raise both my brows this time entertained by her puerile answer. She was the personification of cuteness and innocence.