Ausha's POV

TWO days since something happened to me and Lance, my mood changed at the same time. I get hot headed for the little wrong things. I don't even like pickled chicken and soup, the smell is so bad and it makes me feel sick so I didn't look for it again, what I always look for is the knuckle with Nutella with honey, so Nanny Fell went to town early to buy what I want, even though he's flirting with me.

I've been feeling nauseous in the morning for three days now and always sleepy, I also don't like hot places because I feel like I'm on fire.

"Hija doesn't your stomach hurt when you eat that?" Nanny asked in surprise and placed the knuckle with Nutella and honey on my table. I shook my head and ate it.

"It's not really, it smells and tastes good, do you like it?" I asked and held up the spoon full of meat. She immediately shook her head as if she would vomit if she ate it.

"I-I'm fine hija, if that's not enough just tell me and I'll make you more."

"It's okay, thank you." Nanny also left because she said she was going to remove the mess in the kitchen.

I'm here in the garden now, reading while eating it, it doesn't taste bad but it's addictive and mouth-watering. Even Lance is weirded out by me, but he can't do anything but buy me and do it, it's just surprising because Lance is kind to me, he's not the curmudgeon and hurts me anymore, but a little bit sometimes.

Thyro has not heard from me for two days. I tried to call him but he couldn't reach out. I also called Nanny Cicilia but she said Thyro was not there for two days without coming home, so I was surprised and sad, I miss him. I want to see him, I want to hear his voice. I don't know but I crave for him so I just took out the cell phone we bought and stared at his picture there smiling. I can't stop myself but to smile and to be sad. Where are you? Miss you.

I want to see you, be with you, hold you, hug you, kiss you, I crave for you, shutang ina where are you? I didn't realize that I was crying, I miss him so much, I don't understand but I feel like I'm going crazy that I can't see him in person.

Don't tell me to leave and go home to London with Lucy? I don't know if I can live without you by my side, I can't see you hugging, talking to, kissing someone else... I can't see you happy and have Lucy snatch me away.

What is happening to me? I've been getting emotional and overthinking this past few days, but I can't get rid of the fact that I always want to see Thyro, even if all I can hear is his voice, I'm okay. While I was walking through the mini library, something caught my attention and this is what I am reading now.

"How to take care of a newborn baby" I don't know but this is what caught my attention, it made me think.

I vomit every morning, my mood changes, I don't want my favorite pickled chicken anymore, I eat weird food and when I miss Thyro Raven so much I can't... I'm pregnant?

My heart beat faster, and I swallowed, it's not impossible because how many times has something happened between Thyro and me and something actually happened?

On the island, a few more times and yes we both liked it, he didn't use a condom on me because he said he wouldn't use it on me.

When I finished the food, I went up to my room with Lance and entered the bathroom. I explored the entire bathroom trying to find what I was looking for but I couldn't find anything so I decided to just buy it at the 7/11 convenience store near the hacienda.

There are three cars here, one brought by Lance and yours, one is a family van and the other is a small car. That's all I used. I first informed Nanny Fell that I was going to buy something and she agreed.

I was restless while walking down the road to the 7/11 convenience store, my heart felt like it was running a marathon, the speed of its heartbeat was restless, everything matched, I couldn't be wrong because I was already suspicious from the first time but I ignored it, I thought it was normal but not anymore.

When I got there I opened the car door shaking, even my walking became slow, my hands were damp. I opened the door of the convenience store. There were only five customers buying. I looked for the PT but I didn't see anything and went to the cashier to ask. The woman smiled when she saw me approaching.

"Good afternoon Ma'am, what can I do for you?" she asked politely. I smiled and looked around, luckily I was not with the cashier.

I swallowed. "D-Do you have PT here Ms?" I asked weakly.

"What is that ma'am?" she asked again maybe because he didn't hear what I said because it was like a whisper. I swallowed again.

"Do you have any Pregnancy Test Ms?" I asked a bit loudly. Her eyes widened and she nodded.

"Yes ma'am we have that, how many?" she asked as she took the PT box.

"Two." she nodded and took two, I immediately paid for her and quickly left there and passed by a mini park here in Tagaytay.

I have the PT in my pocket because there is a public cubicle here, so I will try it here. There are quite a lot of people here today because it is Saturday and there is no school day. I entered the female public cubicle and closed it tightly.

My hand was holding the PT tightly and trembling, I read the instructions first before opening it, I took a deep breath and tried it, I just waited a minute and the result came out, my forehead wrinkled when I saw it this, there are two red lines there but one red line can hardly be seen and it results negative. I shook my head, it wasn't wrong.

I tried another one again, my heart was beating fast with nervousness, I waited again for a minute and I sat on the toilet when the result came out, I burst into tears and eventually my tears fell... It's positive, I'm pregnant with Thyro Baby. I spent 20 minutes there, I'm still here at the mini park, I ordered a banana cake and a banana shake.

I was just eating stupidly, I smiled and lightly rubbed my stomach, which was still free of lumps. I can't express my happiness when the PT is positive, I feel like I'm the happiest woman in the world, this is how it feels to be pregnant, it feels so good.

"Honey, Thyro, come here..." I felt as if I was stoned in my seat when I heard the familiarity of the woman's voice.

I tried not to turn around because I knew they were only a foot away from me.

"Honey, come here I want you to buy that one for me, it looks delicious." It's like their voice and my heart is beating loudly. They are. Is that why I can't contact Thyro because he is with Lucy?

There's really nothing I can do to get back to meis Thyro? Shut up, I missed him.

"Okay then we need to go back in my mini house, I have some business to attend to," Thyro said lifelessly. My tears flowed.

That voice, I missed that voice, I missed his voice.

"Okay honey." When I heard their footsteps leaving, I turned to look at him.

He's wearing business attire, and he looked attractive and tall, almost the other woman looked at him while walking away from me. I want to run to him and hug him from behind and tell him how I missed him but I can't, I can't do that, because if I do that we will both be destroyed. Baby I'm sorry, mommy won't tell daddy that it's there first.

"Mommy will find a time to tell your daddy Thyro that he is there, just wait baby, we love you." I whispered while rubbing my stomach at the same time as my tears fell.

It's been a week since I saw Thyro at the mini park, and it's been a week since I've been out of my mind but I think I need to take care of myself too because I'm not the only one alive. I already have a baby inside my belly.

This Monday I'm going to the OB-Gyne to check on the baby. My stomach is a bit bulging but it's not obvious because I wear big t-shirts. I'm also careful about what I eat and I don't stay awake anymore because I'll be with the baby. I've also avoided being stressed and tired, I'm still working at Lance's company, even though there's a lot to do in the office, I'm not having too much trouble, I also avoided lifting heavy things.

I left and used Lance's little white car. I travel 30 minutes to the hospital where there is an OB-Gyne, this is the closest hospital in Tagaytay. I asked the nurse who was assigned to the cashier and was in the second floor room 308, I thanked her and went there. I knocked before entering, I saw a woman.

"Good Morning Doc," I greeted her, she turned to me and smiled.

"Good morning Miss?"

"Buendías."

"Have a seat Miss. Buendias, nice to see you, I'm Doctor Crizel Villa, OB-Gyne, will you have the baby checked up?"

I sat down. "Yes, I want to know how many months the baby is, then what are the dos and don'ts when pregnant."

"No problem, how old is the baby?"

"My first baby, Doc Crizel."

"Wow, nice to know that, pregnancy is usually difficult especially if it's the first baby Miss. Buendias, but don't worry I'm your OB-Gyne I'll help you with that."

She made me enter a room where there was a hospital bed and a monitor where the baby could be seen, she laid me down and started her work, almost nothing was seen because it was new.

"If we can see here on the monitor, Miss. Buendias, it's just a dot because the baby is new and according to the table of months, the baby is only one month old, and the child's attachment is quite weak, so I have vitamins to give for you to buy, wife, " said Doctora Crizel as she continued to check the monitor.

After checking the baby and giving me a picture of the ultrasound, we went back to her office.

"These are the do's and don'ts Miss. Buendias, what you should do, sleep at least 9 hours, eat vegetables, exercise, bask in the sun. What you shouldn't do being with your baby is not allowed to stress, stay up late, lift heavy things, eat junk food, be too tired, drink alcohol, do not have sex with your husband because it might affect your baby, you are also not allowed to be hungry or hungry, those are the do's and don'ts you should do because your pregnancy will be delayed," she said with a smile and gave the paper where the vitamins I would buy were written, the schedule of what time I would take them was also written there.

"Thank you Doc Crizel, I will follow what you said," I said gratefully and got up to leave.

"No problem Miss. Buendias, just come back after 2 months so we can check the baby again, okay?"

"Yes Doc, thanks again."

I left there and went to the Drugstore here at the hospital and gave my paper where the vitamins I needed were, since the check-up at the OB-Gyne was free, I didn't pay anything, I paid about three thousand pesos to the vitamins prescribed by Doc Crizel.

I went straight home to Lance's mansion. He's coming home tonight. We hardly see each other because he comes home late at night and leaves early in the morning. It's better that he avoids hurting me when he's angry or in a bad mood. I parked the car in the garage and went in. I decided to go through the mini library first to return the book I took. As I was approaching the table, someone came over me and covered my mouth so I couldn't scream. I struggled to grasp whoever it was.

"Shhh! It's me, my queen," he whispered in my ear. The beat of my heart went wildly, I smelled his familiar scent.

"T-Thyro?"

"Yes, my queen." He made me face him and leaned against the bookshelves. His lips claimed mine, it's a sweet yet full of loneliness on it. My tears flowed as I caressed her hair and face.

"I missed you, Thyro Raven. I missed you."

"Dammit, I missed you too, My Ausha. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I promised this is just temporary, okay? I'll just fix the mess and I promise we don't have to hide our relationship anymore." Our foreheads were touching. I looked up to meet our eyes.

"What do you mean? Besides, I have something important to tell you, Thyro." I smiled and bit my bottom lip.

He had an invitation card that was blue in color. I hold it and read what the title is.

"We invited you to join in the 28th birthday of Mr. Thyro Raven Madrigal on Oct 29, the event held in Madrigal's Mansion in Tagaytay City Hacienda."

"Your Birthday?" He nodded.

"Yes, and I want you to be there, My Queen. You and Lance we'll go there, and I'm sorry because I can't call you because Lucy took my cell phone, damn she fucking blackmail me—us. I promise, I'll fix this mess, what are you going to tell me, My Shasha?" I took a deep breath and smiled, this is the right time for me to tell him that he is going to be a Daddy.

"It's a good news, I'm pr—"

I stopped what I was going to say when I heard Lance's voice.

"Nanny Fell, where's my wife?"

"It's over there hijo, maybe in the garden or in the mini library." Both of our eyes widened, we quickly separated from each other and I went to the table and took the book and put it back where it was, he was standing while looking at me.

"Cousin? Why are you here? Love?" Lance frowned as he looked at us. Just look at me si Thyro and turned to Lance, he came over and took out an invitation card like the one he gave me.

"I came here to personally give the Invitation Card, I will be expecting you and Mrs. Callen, my birthday will not be complete without you," he said. Lance nodded and patted his shoulder.

"Don't worry cousin, my wife and I will be able to make it," Lance promised and came closer to me and he kissed my lips in front of his cousin. My world almost stopped when I saw Thyro's sharp gaze on us.

"Right love?" Lance asked. I nodded.

"Sure, Lance and I can make it, Thyro."

It nodded. "Oh okay, that's what I came here for, I'll go first," he said goodbye and left.

"It's formal attire, love. Are you going to wear something?" Lance asked while we were eating dinner at night. I shook my head.

"Not yet, besides I don't have any formal clothes to wear."

"Tomorrow, don't go to the office, where are you going to buy your formal dress, what do you think is a good idea?"

"S-Sure, why not?" When we finished eating, Lance immediately went up to our room, I helped Nanny Fell put away the dining table, I was sitting on a chair while watching Nanny wipe the plate, I didn't want to enter Lance's room, because he might suddenly ask me to have sex with him, that's not allowed because my pregnancy will be delayed, it will be with the baby.

Nanny fell, faced me, and she sighed. "Confess to me, Hija Ausha. Are you pregnant?" My eyes widened and my lips parted.

"Nanny fell... how did you say I'm p-pregnant?" I stuttered and nervously asked and glanced at the kitchen door.

"I am also a woman hija, and I have experienced what a pregnant woman goes through, are you pregnant now? Don't pretend to be me." I swallowed and met nanny's gaze.

I nodded to her. "Am I telling you, your mood is different, you eat strange food, and you are sleepy. Is hijo Thyro Raven Madrigal the father?" My eyes widened and my heart beat so fast that it seemed like it was going to come out of my chest.

"Nanny fell..."

She smiled. "I know Hijo Thyro is the father of that, because you can't have children with Hijo Lance," she said, nodding her head.

I frowned. "W-What do you mean?"

"Hijo Lance is barren, hija. In short, he won't have children at any time, maybe adoption is possible."

"How is Lance barren nanny?" I can't believe Lance is barren.

"You are the one he blames for his infertility, because you were beaten by men who almost raped you when you were ten years old, those men beat him when he tried to save you and unfortunately, hijo Lance's manhood was easy so it started at the same time of his infertility, you accidentally hit and run and had amnesia, Hijo Lance is pitiful but there's nothing we can do."

I don't remember anything, I don't remember. Along with my lost memory, I got amnesia so maybe I can't remember that past. Until I fell asleep I couldn't get rid of what nanny said.

I was the one to blame for Lance's barren. Lance was already asleep when I entered our room earlier, maybe because he was tired from work. I couldn't help but stare at his back. Tears flowed and bit my lip. I'm sorry Lance, I don't remember anything.