Becoming What I Hate
By Isabella Ed
Date: October 30, 2023
Ch. 25Sing me a lullaby


KARA’s POV
I was met with silence. I shut my eyes tight and tried to force what I had just seen away from my mind but it was not working. My eyes opened again and I could still make out the figure on the chair.

I was already almost falling off the bed so I adjusted, moved closer and grabbed Julian's arm rather too fiercely.

"Julian you gotta wake up now. Someone is in here with us!" I said with a panicked voice.

"Oh my God, Kara" Julian let out an exasperated sigh. "Can you just shut your eyes and sleep and also let me sleep? There is nobody in here with us. We are the only ones here for fucks sakes."

"No no no.. I can see something right now," I tapped him on the shoulder.

He groaned loudly and flicked the lights on. And then I saw that the supposed person earlier was no person at all. Instead, it was pile of Julian's stupid clothes scattered on the chair.

"So where is the someone?" Julian asked as he turned his head to me, giving me an irritated look.

"It was just your clothes alright. In the darkness, it looked like someone," I replied quietly.

He rolled his eyes to the back of his head.

"I thought you said you weren't scared a while earlier, now you are shaking like a cat,"

"Hey! You forced me to watch the movie," I defended.

"Who knew you were such a scared baby pretending to be tough? Now, go to sleep and leave me the fuck alone, I beg you."

He hastily moved to switch off the light again but I grabbed his hand just in time.

"Stop. I can't sleep with the lights turned off."

"Then this room wouldn't contain both of us, cause there is no way in hell I would sleep with the lights turned on in my face."

"Julian please,"

He looked at me hard in a way that made me think he could see through my night wear.

"What?" I asked him, getting a bit uncomfortable with his intense stares.

"I'm wondering what to do with you," he said and sighed. After thinking in silence for a while, he said to me,"I've decided that I wouldn't please you because I'm already tired. So go to sleep or stay awake the entire night. Goodnight, Kara."

And then he turned the lights off!

How rude. I wanted to punch his face so hard wondering how he could just leave me alone like that and be so damn selfish.

I lay back in the bed again and curled up. I had to force myself to sleep. It was better than going back to my room and being alone. I consoled myself with the thought that anything coming into the room wouldn't murder just me but Julian as well.

That was satisfying.

And then I suddenly felt Julian's arm around me, pulling me close to him. Very close to chest. I was too surprised to even react at first. He wanted us to.. Cuddle?

"Julian what on earth are you doing?" I asked after finding my voice finally.

"Holding you so you are no longer so afraid. That's what," he replied back.

"Its wrong for you to hold me like this you know. Considering the fact that I am married to your brother and this position is quite.."

"Can you just shut up?" He interrupted, his voice laced with slight irritation. "If you don't want this, I might as well kick you out and I'm not even playing."

I twisted my lips to a corner and then said, "Okay fine, you win."

It was oddly satisfying having to be sandwiched in his arms like that. It felt so safe and so comforting. It was officially the second time we were cuddled up against each other like that. And there I was, inhaling his sweet scent.

"I can't sleep, Julian. Talk to me," I said again cause I really couldn't even after I tried to do so three minutes later.

"Kara, do you know what I feel like doing right now?"

"No. And I don't want to know,"

"I'll tell you anyway. Throw you out the fucking window.Just go to bed if you don't want that. Got it?"

"You can't throw me out," I said in a low voice. "I'm too heavy,"

"Oh yeah? I highly doubt that."

"Julian, what's your favorite place to be?"

"A place free from your constant talks, a place with total silence where I can get some fucking peaceful sleep!"

I giggled a little. "You do not have to get so aggressive. Its just a harmless question"

"Yeah. At past twelve in the morning? Kara, go to sleep. This is your last chance otherwise I'll really leave you alone and go sleep in the living room."

"I'd come with you,"

"That wouldn't happen cause I'll be locking you in here. So please, for the love of God, go to bed now."

"Do you know how to sing? Sing me a lullaby." I said, not backing down. I was stubborn, yes I know.

"Sing you a lulla what?"

"Lullaby."

"I can't sing even to save my life. Just let me be."

"Even if you sound like a frog, I really don't mind. Just sing me something please?" I begged and pouted,looking at him even though his eyes were shut and he could not see me.

"Why do I need to be the one to sing?"

"Because I asked nicely and also I'm the one who can't get any sleep here cause I'm scared."

"I'm literally holding you in my arms right now. What more do you want?"

"You could fall asleep any moment, that's why I need to fall asleep first."

He sighed deeply. "You're really something aren't you? What do you want me to sing?"

"Any song by Justin Bieber. Or Chris Brown," I quietly responded.

I thought he was gonna argue with me again but then he started singing. Okay what?



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