I didn't know what to do. I was speechless, my mouth which fell open already signified that I was shocked.

I just stood there, staring intensely into his forest green eyes. The more his eyes pierced into mine, the more hornier I got. I wanted to tear his t-shirt like the wild girl that I was, then run my tongue all over his body while he smacks my àss playfully.
But, I controlled myself. I controlled my feelings. I didn't let what my body wants get the best of me.
I was just staring at him, still battling with my train of thoughts.

It took five minutes to recover myself from the shock.
"What are you doing here, Bryan Hunt?"Those were the words that slipped out of my mouth.

My voice was surprisingly calm and low, I was trying so hard to keep my anger in check. I didn't want to lose my temper.
I was horny, frustrated, tired and angry.

A flirtatious smile spread across his face, exposing his dimples.
I closed my eyes."No. No, stupid jerk. Don't give me that fûcking smile."I muttered inwardly.

"Have you changed your mind, pumpkin? You're so obsessed with me and my body. You couldn't control yourself from texting me when you're horny."

I quickly opened my eyes as they became wide open in shock."I texted you?"I uttered.

I was still in shock that I didn't know when he pushed me aside and walked into the living room.

I shut the door and went to meet him."I didn't give you permission to enter my house."I scoffed.

"I don't need permission and it's not your house. Your parents' house."He corrected me.

He moved an inch closer to me, his eyes were a thousand shades dark filled with desire and lust.
I knew that look.
The same look he gave me when we were locked in a room. We were thirteen and he had my first kiss, giving me that same look.

He raised his hand to my hair. He touched my blond hair gently, he removed the hair band I used to tie my hair in a ponytail.

He tossed the hair band on the ground, still gazing at me."I think the hair band is probably the reason you didn't have a retentive memory. Stop packing your hair. It's not good for your memory plus you look prettier with my hair down."

While he was blabbing his nonsense, I was busy staring at his lips. They were pink and full; the best lips to kiss. I envied his lips and I kinda wished I could kiss him or something. I wished I could have a taste of his lips again.
Our first kiss was so awkward. Of course, I didn't like him. He placed his lips on mine and the kiss stopped almost immediately.

"Just kiss me."His voice snapped me out of my thoughts.

My brows drew together. I wasn't thinking loud, how come he knew my thoughts?
I opened my mouth to protest but before I could say anything, he pressed his lips on mine.

My jaw dropped. I couldn't stop him, because deep down in my mind, I also wanted this. I wanted this forbidden kiss that came with longings and unfulfilled desires.
His lips were cool and firm. I didn't respond to the kiss yet. I wasn't sure of what I was doing. But, I was enjoying the kiss.
I squeezed my eyes shut. Just as he was about to deepen the kiss, my conscience pricked me.
I shouldn't be doing this. I had a boyfriend.
My boyfriend, Bryan's eyes swam in front of my eyes.

I got all my strength and pushed him away. I didn't look at him, I was afraid I might fall for his charms again.
"Go to your house."I blurted out and ran to my room.

I locked my door and I slumped on my queen sized bed. I buried my head on my bed, in shame. I was so ashamed of myself. Ashamed of what I did.
I freaking cheated on my boyfriend.
What have I done?

****
When I woke up the next morning, the first thing was to check my phone.
That was when I realized my mistake. I saved my boyfriend's number as "Mine" while Bryan Hunt's number was saved as "Bryan".
Maybe, because I was horny coupled with my restlessness, that was why I texted Bryan Hunt instead of my boyfriend.

I shrugged off all my thoughts and started preparing for school.
I stood in front of the full length mirror, checking my reflection.
As I brought the lipgloss to my lips, how Bryan Hunt kissed me yesterday flashed in my memory.

God! Why did I allow that shit to happen? I cheated on my boyfriend with my âsshole.
I didn't know how I'm feeling, or what to feel.
Honestly, I enjoyed the kiss. I loved how he kissed me slowly, touching me tenderly. But, it was all shades of wrong. No one must have heard of what happened, else I would be in a deep shît and my reputation would be at stake.

I heard a car horn. I peeped through the window, it was my boyfriend. I swallowed hard. I shouldn't act like I had committed a sin. I would just act normal and as if nothing happened.
My boyfriend mustn't suspect anything. I also made a mental note to avoid Bryan Hunt. I would pretend like I wasn't aware of his existence in the school.

With those thoughts, I applied the lipgloss on my lips and ran downstairs before my boyfriend could come to my room.

"I was about to come to your room."Bryan beamed a smile at me, as he saw me walking through the stairs.

"I don't know why a teenage girl should apply makeup on her face, before going to school."Mom chimed in.

I gave a half shrug."You said that yesterday, mom."I pointed out.

"And, I will continue saying it till you stop being a bimbo."She retorted."I don't even know why your dad got you that expensive makeup kit."

I pouted my lips."Because he always wants me to look beautiful. He promised to get another one for me, when he is back from his business trip."

"I'll talk to her, aunty. She will stop applying too much cosmetics on her face."Bryan said to my mother.

I hissed silently, facing my boyfriend."Just your wish, anyway."

I pulled Bryan out of the house, before mom could mutter any other word. Mum could be such a drama queen, at times. She was acting like make-up is something forbidden. It's not as if I wasn't legal, I was eighteen years old.
Mum was so dramatic.

"Maybe, you should just listen to your mum. Always listen to her."Bryan said to me, as we entered his car.

I frowned."If you're going to tell me shîts, just let me get out of my car."

"What's wrong with you?"

"Nothing."

He leaned in closer to me and planted a kiss on my lips. I didn't deepen or respond to the kiss, I was glad that he didn't deepen the kiss. He just ended the kiss, giving me a blank look.

Somehow, I found myself comparing how my boyfriend kissed me to Bryan Hunt's. I didn't want to do that, but I landed with that thought. I hated that I preferred Bryan Hunt's kiss to my boyfriend. What the heck was wrong with me?
The moment Bryan Hunt kissed me, I've been acting so weird. I really need to avoid that jerk.

The rest of the journey to the school was spent in silence. I didn't know the reason I was pissed off.
Was it because mom said those things? Or, was it because of what happened yesterday?
I should be filled with guilt instead of anger. Instead, I was filled with guilt. I felt like telling Bryan that I kissed Bryan Hunt. But, the words couldn't come out of my mouth. Or maybe, I didn't want to tell my boyfriend yet.

We reached the school a few minutes ago. As usual, I maintained a smile on my face even though I wasn't happy. My boyfriend and I didn't have the same timetable, so we went to our different classes.
I was lucky that Bryan Hunt and I didn't have the first few classes together, I was able to avoid him.

*
It was almost lunch break. I was going to the restroom, when a strong arm covered my eyes and pulled me to an empty room along the hallway. No one needs to tell me, I already knew that it was Bryan Hunt.

"What do you want?"I asked him after he released his hand which was covering my face.

He smirked."You?"

I let out a hiss."I hate when you smirk, it's irritating."

He smirked again, just to annoy me."Is it because I look more handsome than your boyfriend, while doing it?"

I gave a half shrug."No, you look pathetic."

He moved a few inches closer to me while I pulled away. He did it again while I also moved back, until my back hit a wall. He caged me to the wall.

"Move back, Bryan."
I hated that my voice came out so low and sensual, like I was begging him.

He moaned, closing his eyes for a second."Stop talking like that, pumpkin."

"Leave me alone, Bryan. I have to go to the restroom."
I tried to push him away, but he was stronger than me. My hands landed on his chest, while he slipped his hand to my waist, gripping me closer to him.

I hated that we were in an intimate moment. I was scared that someone might walk in, he didn't lock the door. But, another part of me liked this moment. That crazy part wanted him to hold like that forever, that part liked the smell of his cologne which was filling my nose deeply.

I cleared my throat."What do you want from me, Bryan Hunt? Do you love me or what?"

"I don't know. But, I don't love you."

My eyelids dropped. His last words hurted me and I didn't know why it had such an effect on me, after all I didn't love him either.

"Then, why are you running after me?"I questioned.

He shot me a wink."I don't love you but I want you."

My brows furrowed."What - "

He interrupted me."Let's talk about what happened yesterday, pumpkin."

"N..No."I stuttered.

"We have to talk about it. I know you can't deny that you didn't enjoy - "

The door jerked open, a familiar voice resounded in my head."Enjoy what?"
I looked up. I felt weak in my knees as my eyes met with my boyfriend's.