I was quite bored by what the lecturer was saying and couldn't count the number of times I zoned out just because I keep falling asleep as he went on with the class which almost got me sent out of the lecture room. Twice.

Thankfully, the lecture ended and it was break... I don't know where my twin is presently so I am just going to head for the restaurant outside of the school campus to get something to eat.

After this break, I would be having two more lectures and that would be all for the day.

Sighs!

I didn't think the university would be this stressful and energy-consuming... no one prepared me for this and it's not fair.

I wish I could stay at home and take online classes instead but mum didn't want me living in fear anymore that was why she wanted me to attend in-person university and I didn't have anything to worry about since my siblings attend the same university as me.

I get that she didn't want me to be scared of going outside but I think I like the solace of my room every single time... I could stay indoors for the rest of the day and no one will know I am home till they come knocking to ask of me.

I stayed home for a really long time that it took quite a while for me to get used to leaving the house for lectures, well at least I am a bit used to it but I do watch my back every now and then to be sure that no one is creeping in on me.

Chris came to visit the other day and I wasn't really ready to meet with him... I thought that since it had been a long time since I saw him last, the next time I will see him I might actually be prepared to see him and we could do a little friendship bonding here and there.

But when he came, I didn't prepare myself for the feelings that I thought had died for him to resurface and remind me of how much I like that boy... not a boy, a man now.

I felt kind of awkward around him though because I was half angry and half sad that he did... scratch that, he was forced to do what he did to me all those times by my dad.

Well, I think the anger I felt for him subsided when he took that bullet that was actually meant for me on the day dad got his final judgment.

That was a day I wished not to relieve again, it was horrifying, and seeing him in the pool of his blood just made me really scared and scarred but I am glad that he made it out alive.

When we had gone to the hospital after the ambulance took him from the incident spot, we were so scared and really hoped that he comes out alive and okay... the doctor did tell us that he was in a critical state and all we could do at that time was pray for him to be better.

Soon, he was stable and he slowly healed from his injuries.

My family was not pleased with what he did to me but we all forgave him and decided to move on from what happened. We were all victims of my dad's evil plan toward me.

It's just sad that some people got dragged into this mess.

I was and still am really worried that Leo never thought of calling, texting, or anything in three years of not seeing each other, and although I feel disappointed I think he needs it a lot.

He too got lots of things going on for him at that moment and I am so wishing that he gets over it.

My stomach rumbled and it reminded me that I needed to walk faster to grab something to eat.

Just as I got out of the school compound so that I could cross to the other side of the road to get to the restaurant, I stopped in my tracks when I saw the person that was leaning against a black corolla.

He was much taller, he had well-groomed stubble covering his jaw and around his mouth, his hair wasn't the usual punk I was used to because his hair was braided in four big-sized cornrows coupled with a neat buzz cut, and his skin was really toned and he looks beautiful.

He was wearing a pair of blue jeans, and a black t-shirt that hugged his now muscular torso, chest, and shoulders, and what I can say in all was 'I miss him'.

When he saw me, he stood up straight and walked a step closer to me with a huge grin on his face. I looked at him with so many emotions running through me and the tears begin to gather in my eyes because I was going to cry any moment from now.

My lips quivered and my hands shook at the intensity of the emotions surging through my entire system.

'GOD, I miss him'

He opened his arms wide for me to get in and I broke.

The tears that threatened to fall seconds ago fell like a pipe was burst and looking for an exit, so I bow my head, my shoulders slouched as my body shook from the sobs erupting out of my mouth.

Soon enough I was gathered in a familiar warm embrace and the tears kept coming.

I wasn't even going to start feeling conscious that people might be watching how ugly sobs are getting out of me or standing to wonder what made me start crying after seeing this really handsome man whose embrace I am in.

I wrapped my arms around his torso and he kept crying my heart out.

I needed this, I needed him and I tightened my grip around him for fear that it was just another daydream or that he might actually leave forever and never come back to me.

"I miss you, Leo," I said the words that were at the tip of my tongue and I heard him chuckle then felt a tap on my head before he leaned away from the hug.

Since he was taller, I had to raise my head so that I could look at him properly.

He had that sweet handsome smile he always wore and there wasn't much that changed about him aside from his stubble, his hair, and how manly he looked now.

His fingers wiped the tears that fell on my cheeks and he caressed my cheek with the back of his hand while he kept looking into my eyes.

"You've grown so much and looked more beautiful than the last time I saw you," he said and I closed my eyes as more tears kept trailing down my cheeks.

I really, really miss him and all his compliments.

"I miss you," I said again because it was the truth.

"Where are you headed? You done with lectures for the day?" he asked letting go of me and taking my hand in his and leading me somewhere.

I didn't respond due to how overwhelmed I felt with his sudden presence but I kept breathing in deeply and trying to actually get the tears to stop.

I opened my eyes when we walked a few steps and stopped then I saw that we stopped beside the car he was leaning against.

When he held my face in his soft palms, I could feel my heart leap at how close we were so I leaned into his touch and allowed my eyes to meet with his beautiful ones.

Our eyes were locked and I let out a shaky breath then closed my eyes when he leaned in and planted a soft kiss on my forehead which brought back all those warm feelings I get whenever he is close to me.

"I need you to stop crying," he said after leaning back

"I know we have lots of catching up to do but the last thing I want is to see you cry, so please stop crying, everything is good, okay?" he said to me and I nod my head then sniffed and took in deep breaths to steady my fast-beating heart and my shaky hands.

He is here and I hope he is staying. He isn't leaving.

I wasn't sure about that but that was what I needed to keep me calm and get my acts together.

"I am good, sorry, I am just so happy to see you again," I said and another tear threatened to spill but I managed to keep it in.

"I am happy to see you too, now let's go have lunch," he said and opened the passenger seat for me to enter and I got in while he went to the driver's seat after he closed the door for me.