I am feeling way under the weather today and you can guess what is causing me to feel this way... well before I dwell on what caused this feeling, let me get off what I am actually feeling at the moment.

Warning! I might get dramatic here and there but at least I get to express myself.

I wouldn't say I am pissed because that would mean I am exaggerating and I don't want to be too dramatic, it might be hard not to be like that but I can try my best.

So something happened to me over the weekend which made me so distressed and feeling down.

I am petrified... is that word appropriate for the situation I am currently in? I can't begin to explain how exactly I am feeling now and how I am supposed to react to certain things now.

Maybe I shouldn't feel this way since Bam is really happy and sated.

Her happiness equals mine so that should give me some kind of relief... well, it did no good to give me any of that though.

I still feel happy that this post-birthday thing made her happy so back to how I am feeling.

I think I have said enough of how I am feeling, now I can say what caused me to feel this way but first I think there should be something called post-menstrual syndrome... does that exist?

If not, then there should be something called that because I just had my period and I feel like...

Sighs!

So, back to what put me in this state. I and Bam were supposed to go to Shawn Mendes's concert like we planned since Filet got us our tickets and backstage passes but I couldn't go because I was down with flu... argh!

It's really annoying to think about it and I don't know how to feel now.

When I woke up yesterday to prepare for school, I suddenly felt shaky and sweaty but thought that it was because I had little to nothing to eat the previous day so I decided to sit on my bed for a while to calm my shaky legs and even covered my body to keep myself warm.

Then after about twenty minutes of being in that position, I finally decided that it was time that I stood up but it felt like instead of getting some strength from the little resting, I felt weaker but managed to stand up on my feet and walked downstairs to get something in my stomach.

I thought it could help but it only increased my irritation and I threw up in the guest bathroom downstairs... thank the LORD we had one downstairs too.

I managed to drag my weak self to the living room and lay awkwardly on the couch as I wait for one of my parents to come out of their room to help me up to my room.

I had thought that more symptoms were going to be added to my collection of period symptoms but that wasn't the case because when my mum came out and saw me in that situation, she took me to my room and called our personal doctor who was also a very good friend of dad.

He checked me and said I had flu but it wasn't too serious that I needed heavy medical treatment he said I needed to rest after eating and taking my drugs so it could go away quickly.

It was his way of convincing me that if I rest now, I would have the strength to go to the concert so I agreed and took ate, took the medicine, and slept off after a moment.

It was in the morning that that incident happened, that should be around six or seven in the morning so I slept off and when I woke up Bam was by my side with a sad look on her face because according to her mum had explained what was wrong with me and told her that I might not come along with her.

I still felt drowsy but managed to hold a conversation with her for about thirty minutes before going back to sleep.

But before I went back to the lovely abode of sleep, I told her that she could go with Filet and together, they could have fun and see it as a time for them to get closer as friends.

As I thought, she disagreed and I told her that she could go alone or with Filet so she had to pick option b since I know she wouldn't want to have that experience alone.

I told her to tell Filet to bring her back to my place after the concert so we can have a sleep-over and by that time, I would have been fully awake and much better and we could talk about her experience there/

She felt bad though and taught me that I was just trying to get her and Filet to be together but looking at how I looked, it was hard to think I would plan for them to be together.

I want them to be together but I wouldn't sacrifice something as seeing Shawn Mendes backstage for them, there could be other scenarios that I could plan but not this one.

Well, since my body refused to cooperate and wanted the rest it needed to be okay, I just told her how much I would want to be there with her as we scream and probably cry before and after seeing him.

Deep inside, I felt bad that I couldn't go with her but there is a little you can do to control your body when nature speaks.

When she came back, as predicted, I felt much better... was a bit shivering but it was better than I felt in the morning and she filled me in on everything that happened and I was happy/unhappy.

I already explained my reasons above so there isn't any need for me to start going overboard.

She filled me in on what had happened and how much fun she had, the place on her arm that Shawn signed as requested by her and she told me how much she wished it was permanently tattooed on her skin but I knew that she wouldn't even dare do such.

Bam fancy all those piercing, tattoos, and the rest that explains the crazy colored hair extensions she used on her hair that I love but I know that she wouldn't color them or do those things she says she wants to do.

It's just like when she told me one day that she would pluck out my nails if I offended her like I did one time but she never goes through with it because they are empty words full of promises.

I remembered giving her a 'seriously?' Look and continued to listen to her talk about how her day went. She is scared of needles and anything pricking her skin so I know will be a no-go for her even if she keeps saying that she would do it.

So, back to what she was telling me if I couldn't have that much fun, my best friend did so I still had fun but I just wasn't there to feel it... it's the soul thing, I guess but whatever.

She said Shawn thought Fillet was her boyfriend and called them a 'cute couple'.

When she was saying it, I saw how red her cheeks went and knew then that she likes him but I just couldn't understand why she was pushing him away.

If someone like Fillet is so into me, I would be pulling him closer to me instead of what she was doing but again. It's hers to choose and I mustn't interfere.

Now it's the morning of Saturday and Bam is on my bed sleeping while I am on my small sofa as I watch her in annoyance with a little backache that made me stretch at intervals.

All through the night, she was placing her legs on me and pushing me before she eventually pushed me off the bed and I landed painfully on my butt in the middle of the night.

I would have woken her or pushed her too but it was really late and everyone was having their night rest so being the source of people's discomfort wasn't a trait I am connected to so I peacefully, took some pillows and bedspread then spread them on the floor so I could continue sleeping.

It was so uncomfortable but at least I got to sleep and I don't feel as feverish as yesterday.

Now I am waiting for this multi-colored-haired friend of mine to get up so we can head downstairs for breakfast.

Mum and dad should be up by now... they are early birds.

I saw her figure move on my bed and I yawned then stood up to wake her up if she wasn't planning on doing so any moment from now.

"I will push you if you don't stand up," I said when I walked up to my bed and stood beside the bed as I looked at her stretching figure, getting so comfortable on my bed.

"Did you sleep well?" she asked then sat up.

"Very well" I answered sarcastically.

"Sorry for pushing you off the bed" she muttered then stood up and stretched again.

"You were awake when you did that?" I asked as I watched her open my wardrobe to grab a robe and wear it before she face me with her very fine sleeping face.

"No, but the blankets on the floor and pillows showed that I pushed you yet again... sorry" she apologized.

"It's fine" there was nothing there to be angry about.

She likes to be free as she sleeps but she needs to train herself not to be too loose as she sleeps.

We left my room and walked downstairs together.

"I am glad you had fun yesterday," I told her.

"I am glad that you feel better now" she smiled and I smiled back.

Mum and Dad were downstairs when we came down and as usual they were flirting with each other so we interrupted and greet them with kisses on their cheeks.

They didn't stop though... most especially dad since he would throw her flirty looks and winks when he thinks that we aren't looking. I love their relationship.

"I have a date with Filet later in the evening" she whispered to me and all those sad feelings I got from not going with her slowly disappeared and thought that maybe it was definitely worth it.

"I need details when you get ba-"

"Bam" mum interrupted what I was going to say and we both looked at her and dad.

Dad was now checking what she was doing on the stove while she looked at us both.

I could see the look she had on her face and I was sure that whatever she was going to mention next might change someone in this room's mood instantly.

Guess what? I wasn't lying because what rolled out of her lips next made Bam still.

"Your parents are finally back and they want to have a meeting with you after you had breakfast."