I have friends but I'm not too attached to him because I'm afraid that our friendship won't last. So my boyfriend is the one I'm always with. We've been together for a few years and I'm very lucky with him because he doesn't. I left him, he was always there to support me, we didn't see each other because he was a jowa, who was a girl but we accepted that of course we are friends and the only sad thing is because we don't pay attention anymore as if there is a space between the two of us, because That's when we visited them, and he got angry with us because he said why did we go there and he wasn't there, so that's when I started asking why I didn't want to pay attention to him until now, it's our second year, but we don't have school because of covid 19 , sometimes I go to Nelly's house, sometimes she also comes here with Emie, I don't because I'm going out, it's better for me, I'm still at home, reading, writing stories, doing housework and so on, because my mom is not here because she is in manila, so I am the one who does everything when I am home, because my brothers and sisters are still young, so I don't wander too much, sometimes it makes me insecure Emie Because no matter where he goes, even if he doesn't say goodbye, it's okay. He's not scolded
Sometimes Nelly and I get jealous because they are always together, in all the wanderings, bathe in the sea, visit rich's house, drink Alam, I know every time they invite me sometimes it's not really possible So they've gotten used to it, and came to the point that they don't come to our house anymore, they don't even take me with them anymore, and it's like they're not our friends, every time I go to their house, I ask Nelly's mom if she's there, she just tells me his mother why? Didn't Emie go with them? They went to rich's house, so I just answered, ahh, I didn't come because I was busy at home, I was just bowing because of course the pain was enough, they wandered around sometimes but they didn't even come to our house to ask If I should go with you. Until one night I went to Nelly's house to get wifi and suddenly she came out and called me, So I just said oyyy with a smile but deep inside I was sulking ,+ It just hurts to think that it's not anymore we've been so close since then, we're the two who are always together, all the time, fooling around, crying, but now I'm hurt because I'm no longer the one who can be called his best friend, even if we don't say it, we're sloLittle by little we are returning to not knowing each other, yesterday was Rich's birthday, I thought they would come here but No Hays I know they went to Rich's house but didn't even take me with them maybe because they thought I would hate them too if they asked me wly drifting away from each other each other.Little by little we are returning to not knowing each other, yesterday was Rich's birthday, I thought they would come here but No Hays I know they went to Rich's house but didn't even take me with them maybe because they thought I would hate them too if they asked me .Because the pain is so painful, That's why I'm here at home, brooding while writing The story of our friendship, The happy and bad memories, How strong we were at first until the wall we built gradually cracked.+ Once upon a time I can't stop crying, sometimes I think they are crying too. Can they miss me too? The time we were together? Our closeness. But I don't know. I don't know if they value our friendship. Once my boyfriend and I talked about our situation, it made me cry, it's a good thing he was there to comfort me. But I'm still hoping that I hope the old days come back, Our old company, The old us. But I know it's vague but it's not bad to dream HAHA. I just love you so much, I will never forget that you were a part of my life, thank you for everything.I never thought we would end up like this. We should have done something to stop us from breaking apart. But It's too late. I know it's too late.